October 07, 2009
I might be crazy. A little crazy is probably ok considering I have kids, but I have no way to judge my crazy level. Honestly, I'd rather not open that pandora's box anyhow.
After crying myself to sleep for four nights and after realizing all the distractions in the world couldn't get my mind off of Bella and the thoughts that I made a huge mistake, I went back and got her.
Yes, I went there. The shelter sure didn't care, it's not like I dropped her off in the dark of the night like my friend thought I did. I'm crazy, not a coward. I gave them all her paperwork, gave her a dose of her flea Rx that day and explained to them through my sobbing, shoulder shaking cries why I was giving her up. So, I just went back and asked if I could get her back. There's not an ounce of doubt in my mind they judged me as crazy. The lady was super sweet, understanding and wished me good luck. A little of my feelings came from the guilt corner, but most of my feelings came from just missing her. No, the girls don't like her and Mark hasn't changed his mind, she is a pain in the ass dog, but she's my pain in the ass dog. I missed having her here so much. In the end it came down to me believing that it's ok for her to just be my dog, it's ok that she won't be considered our family's dog. I love her, she loves us and she belongs here.
I was so happy to be bringing her home. Sure I thought about the circus that was soon to be our home, but it still felt right.
We now have two kids, two cats, one dog and three fish. The cats are curious about Bella, she's curious about them, but so far Bella just tucks her tail as they run around corners teasing her. There have been a couple hisses from the cats as they smell her out, but Bella is handling it like a champ.
Mark is handling it like a champ too. He seems to be ok with my level of crazy.
I fell asleep at 9:30 last night and didn't wake up until 6am! As I said before, everything felt right again.
Posted by Amy at October 7, 2009 07:34 AM
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Yay! I'm so happy you got her back and everything feels right :) It must be meant to be! Enjoy the chaos ;)
Posted by: Jess at October 7, 2009 08:52 AM
Thanks Jess! So far so good. Mark made a confession to me yesterday that he's glad Bella is back too. He said he agrees it feels right.
He could just be glad I stopped crying ;-)
Posted by: Amy at October 8, 2009 02:27 PM